UGA Vs. Boise State

So today was the opening day for the football season at UGA. We won against Boise State 45-13 (well something close to that anyay). It was a good way to start the season. Anyway the game was the highlight of my day. I seem to get happy off of rowdy crowds, it's why I enjoy outdoor concerts so much...

Well although this part of my day was good, it doesn't speak for the rest of it. While tailgating this morning I realised I've got a lot of friends and a lot of groups, but in all honesty I'm not really part of a single one of them, which is rather a sad though. I also realised today how much I miss Mona. I guess there's just a lack of people who I feel are like me. People either don't want to party at all or party too much for me, or I dunno... There's no sense of balance in Athens, everything's built to one extreme or another...

The one thing that did make me happy this morning though was my hallmates offering to sneak me into the dining hall with them. It was just a really nice gesture on their part and i'm hoping I'll get to know them all better slowly.

I miss the summer as well now that I think about it. Although I feel the longer I'm away from my friends back home the further apart we drift, the more fights we have, and the less we get along... Today's just not a day of positive thoughts. Yet while I was walking to and from the football game you would've thought I was drunk as I could've been the happiest person in the world at that point but I was completely sober the question would have to be, how do I stay in that mental state of mind at all times?

I'm a downer at parties cause I never seem to get drunk and happy instead I'm cleaning up after people, looking after people, making sure people don't do stupid things...none of it is required of me yet I do it anyway...why? i guses is the question i keep asking myself now. People don't look after me when i'm down and out to be honest most of the time they don't notice but oh well it's life's sick joke i guess... The helpful arn't helped and the helped arn't helpful...

Well now that i've thoroughly depressed anyone who's read this I think i'll go sleep. G'night... and no, I'm not a manic depressent, I'm just having a bad day...there is a difference...